What would you do if you or a loved one had cancer? I’ve had cancer all around me. Autism too! I have Dementia so I’m just sloshing along. I have hope of seeing more days but my mom hid her pain in Missouri. I know she had pain. She said it was arthritis. My friend said her Liver was weak. The Liver is the retaining force in someone. She was suseptible to colds and other virises. Misdiagnoses, treated for the wrong cause, self-diagnosis all are involved with cancer patiens. I know we sure did. Survivors have a fight going on with the loved one. My dad had many nights up checking on mom while she puckled the bottom of her stomach contents down the toilet. I had just as many without sleep. Sure many say cancer is simple, it wont get me.!
Few years ago I have very interesting conversation with my old friend. She study Numerology, Chinese Astrology and all this stuff… She asked me what is my lucky number.
Well, my birthday is 04.04.47. so I told her 4.
Oh my God! She said. Number 4 is very unlucky in Chinese Numerology. It means sudden death!
Well, I said. I think that’s very lucky. Who wants to die slow? 🙂 !
But anyway, I’m glad, that nobody told me about that when I was young…
And than, couple years later, when I was diagnosed with cancer I was thinking about this conversation.
I thought: If Chinese Numerology is right, I’m not going to die of cancer. This is slow death. I’m going to survive cancer and die later, suddenly… That’s great!!! 🙂 !!!
And as I mention in previous post – If you believe that you are going to survive, you will. Because all your cells in your body don’t have a brain. They are doing what you are thinking.
And I think, that Chinese Numerology is right about number 4. 🙂 .
Anyway, I think, that any number can be lucky. All depends on how you look at it.
They say that number 1 is the best number. And I say: Number 2 is twice as good as 1. 🙂 .
Thank you all for your support!
After I read your comments on my last post “Writing my book” I got so inspired, that I wrote two chapters of my book in 3 days! Of course, they have to be rewrite few times. But you know – fixing something is easier than creating.
You are giving me strength and confidence to go on. Anyway, without your support I wouldn’t even dream about writing this book. Without you – there would never even be oneanna65 – only some old, very sick and lonely woman with no purpose to live on…..
And now, because I know that you believe in me, because you believe that I can do it, I will work on that book even harder and faster.
Do you know, that I have only one friend? Others – they don’t understand why I’m spending so much time on blogging and now talking about writing some book….. That’s okay. I can probably explain to them when I’m done with my book……
And my (one) friend believes in me. She understand why I’m doing it… And she is my Computer Guru. Very intelligent person.
When I’m done (some day… 🙂 ) with all this writing, she is going to make an E-book of it. She knows how!
So I have to go back to my writing.
Thank you once again!!!
God Bless you all.
Sending big cyber hug to anyone who needs one…
Finally I got organized and I’m writing my book! Very slowly, but if I work on it every day – some day is going to be finished….. I’m glad that I don’t have to write 75 000 words minimum… 🙂 ! Just few chapters…
You see, I’m not a writer, but I have to write this book because I have something important to share – I want to inspire more people. I can not inspire nobody in person, because people who know me and people who I’m meeting and talking to – don’t take me seriously. When they hear me talking they assume that I have nothing of value to tell them… And if I tell someone that I have a successful Blog, they ask: “In what language?” Never mind!!!
That’s okay. I understand.
But when you are reading my page you don’t hear my funny accent. And I can write and rewrite every page – to make it sound almost English…
When I talk – it is what I have just said….
So in my case writing a book is a very slow process. Lots of handwriting, rewriting, trying to find the right words.
I like what Mark Twain said about it: “The difference between the right word and the almost right word is the difference between lightning and a lightning bug”. 🙂 !
Anyway, I have some experience with writing: over 2 years of blogging – 76 posts!
I know, I can do it!
And I’m learning while I’m writing.
By the time I finish my book, my English is going to be much better… 🙂 !
Few days ago when I was shopping at Wall-Mart I met this nice, old lady. She was on the wheelchair, disable, so I was helping her with shopping. And we talk…
She told me that she is cancer survivor.
So Am I.
She said that her all life was very challenging.
So was mine.
She have a heart attack.
I have one too.
She have Rheumatoid Arthritis.
Well, I have my Gout.
And on the end of our short conversation she told me, that she is very old. She is 65 years old!
So was I – two years ago…
But I didn’t say that. I only told her that I was over 50 years old…
This was a very strange encounter. I felt very sorry for that Lady. She sounded very hopeless. I didn’t know what to say. I was only repeating: “I’m sorry, I’m so sorry”…
And I realized, that actually I’m disable, old woman – but still walking ( slowly…) and don’t complaining about that all…
Maybe I’m so strong because I inherited my Grandmothers genes?
Or maybe because I’m over 50 years old – not 67? 🙂 !
Even the Doctors are puzzled. Any time I talk to one, he want to send me again for one more full body scan…
They probably want to see what is inside of me that keeps me going , and going… 🙂 …
Well, I’m just very grateful that I’m the way I’m – for now. That I can find the strength to get up in the morning and keep going… And that I’m (mostly) independent. Thank you God!
And I want to thank you all – my readers – you are my inspiration and the reason to go on…
God Bless you all!
I will like to thank Daniel – Willy Nilly To And Fro – for nominating me for Brave Heart Award. I Am honored, thankful and speechless…
Daniel, you mention in your comment to Amy, that we can deal with this Award as we please…
So, first of all I want to share this beautiful poem from the Award page with my readers: “Man of La Mancha” by Joe Marion.
It is the mission of each true knight…
his duty… Nay, his privilege!
To dream the impossible dream,
To fight the unbeatable foe,
To bear with unbearable sorrow
To run where the brave dare not go;
To right the unrightable wrong.
To love, pure and chaste, from afar,
To try, when your arms are too weary,
To reach the unreachable star!
And I will like to share this Award with my readers – they are brave – they are sharing their stories of struggles, misfortunes and survival – sending the message of hope and love to those who need ……
Here is the link: http://dwhinson56.wordpress.com/2014/5/23/the-brave-hearts/
Daniel, you are great! Thank you for intrusion! 🙂 !!! Thank you for Award! My Angels are singing: THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! – they are my helpers……
This is a great inspiration for those who are trying to survive against all odds…..
In my Blog under the empty WordPress page “About” – there is 1105 “Likes” and 1500 Comments. 🙂 . I don’t know how this happen…
I wanted to write something about me on that page, but I wasn’t sure how, so I just leaved it alone…
But now – in my Book – I can tell you all “About” me – so you will know where I’m coming from… 🙂 .
Is going to be short Bio of my long, complicated life – most important happenings in my life – the ones that shaped my outlook on life and made me – who I Am now.
I will also take the best pages from my Blog and place in my Book – for those who never read my Blog.
And finally, I’m going to place few pictures of me in the Book, so you can see who is behind this red flower… 🙂 .
I’m going to try to make sense of my Blog. You see, my Blog is a big mess. I was sick and busy, working most of the time – and with my limited English and computer knowledge I’m surprised that I did – what I have done. Of course – with the help of my Angels – Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!
I’m going to keep this Blog the way it is – and keep posting about my life, health and Book progress.
Is going to take me a long time to write this Book – I’m very slow – but I know, I can do it. I’m very persistent. I’m going to work on it every day – writing, rewriting – until is done… This is my plan…
I found new remedy for gout – MSM.
I Google: MSM gout treatment – and I found a page: “Gout and MSM” posted by Randi Blair. Like me, he suffered with gout for very long time. Like me, he was trying many remedies, but nothing really worked. Only MSM helped him. He is pain free!!!
And than I Google: MSM cures cancer – and I found post: “How does MSM affect cancer?”
And this what they say: …MSM helps our bodies maintain the proper PH levels and detoxify our body. Cancer can not survive in alkaline body. So adding MSM to your diet will ensure that your body have enough sulfur to fight cancer and other illnesses”… Very interesting! One capsule against cancer and gout!
So I got MSM- made by NOW. I’m going to take one 1000 mg capsule 2 x a day. I’m sure this is going to help!
But actually the best remedy is your support. After reading your comments on my last post – I don’t have any other choice, but only get better… 🙂 ! And I will!!!
You are giving me strength and confidence to go on. THANK YOU!!!
God bless you all.
So here I Am – free at last and very sick.
4 days ago I left my job and moved to my friends house.
And I’m very happy!!!
But I’m very tired and overwhelmed by pain. My gout is getting worse. My all body aches. But the most pain is in my legs and arms. On the Pain Scale from one to ten – I’m on eleven… 🙂 .
I’m trying to rest and organize my stuff. But I’m very slow. Every move hurts.
You know, I’m feeling so lousy now, that I’m not able to work anyway. I’m glad that I quit this job!
Is going to take me some time to recover. But with some deep breathing and determination I shall be better soon. I have to!!!
I have to change my diet again and find some new remedies. So I have to do some research again.
And the most important thing is that there is no more stress for me!!! Nobody is calling: AAAAAAAAAANAAAAAAAAAAAA !!! – anytime I sit down or lay down… 🙂 .
Two more days and I’m going to be free! No more stress, Old Ladies. No more work…
I’m going to stay with friends – very nice, clean, intelligent people – in quiet neighborhood. Rent is high, but everything is there, even internet!!! 🙂 !
They work all day, but I won’t be alone. They have 3 dogs and talking parrot. The dogs bark sometimes, but Hey!, after people barking on me for such a long time, dog barking is going to sound like a music to my ears… 🙂 .
I love dogs, cats and all animals. They are nicer than most of the people by whom I was surrounded most of my life.
I love humans too. But some of them I prefer to keep loving from the distance. 🙂 .
So first I’m going to rest, sleep for a week. Than organize my stuff next week. And than start working on my book finally! I’m so happy!
I wish I could stay longer with the Old Lady, save more money and make sure that she have new, good help, but I can’t. My health is in danger. My blood pressure is getting higher and even my gout pain is coming back. I can’t do the job anymore.
And the Old Lady and her family – they all want me to stay – they are acting now like I would be irreplaceable… 🙂 .
That’s funny, two weeks ago I was no good, they wanted to lower my salary.
I’m leaving. I wish them all good luck, but I have to save myself.
I’m quitting again my new job, but not because I’m quitter ( ? 🙂 ), but because I want to live and inspire some more…
You know, I have been thorough a lot of stress – and now this Old Lady is very annoying… My immune system is coping with too much stress and can’t protect my body from anything else. And my body is telling me: THAT”S ENOUGH!!!
I’m surprised that after ALL I’m basically okay…
So I told the Old Lady that I’m leaving in 2 weeks. She wants me to stay.
But I don’t care anymore. I’m quitting!!!
Kenny Rogers is right: …”You’ve got to know when to hold’em, know when to fold’em”…
Thanks Kenny! I’m folding’em!!! 🙂 !!!